Sometimes words fail us. When they do, depending on the cause and our own propensities, we resort to song, dance or other forms of wordless expression. And sometimes we scream. Primal screams that communicate an agony beyond verbal expression resound throughout the Torah.
The first belongs to murdered Abel, whose blood cries out from the ground for justice (Gen 4:10). Another belongs to Hagar as she watches her son wither to his death (Gen 21:16). Israel screams in servitude in Egypt (Exod. 2:23) and later during their trials in the wilderness (Num 14:1).
Perhaps the most piercing scream of all occurs in Parshat Toledot when first-born Esau realizes that his younger brother, Jacob, had tricked him out of receiving his father Isaac’s blessing. Esau approaches his father to receive the blessing only to learn that just moments before, Jacob had stolen his identity and his blessing. When Isaac informs him of this, Esau releases a great and bitter primal scream (Gen. 27:34).
Esau screams. He screams for the loss he feels and for the deception he experienced. At their core, Esau’s screams communicate his frustration at a world that does not conform to communal norms nor to his personal expectations. His father’s blessing belonged to him as the eldest son. In ancient Israel, first-borns had a unique status (Exod. 13:2) and received double the family inheritance (Deut. 21:17). For Esau, Isaac’s blessing Jacob defied all his assumptions of the way the world should work and how his life should unfold.
I have always felt for Esau, whose brother and mother betray him. But in the last years of political turmoil, natural disasters, rising anti-Semitism, and Covid-19, Esau’s screams resonate with me more. Like Esau, I feel as if I live in a world that does not conform to my expectations.
For the first time in my life, my basic assumptions about how I live and work, how my children are educated, how my family and friends gather, how we live Jewishly are challenged. Nothing feels certain. What seemed to me to be fundamental truths about the way the world should work have been upended. Often, I want to scream like Esau.
Blessedly for me, the Torah reflects this topsy-turvy world. It tells a story of individuals that defy norms and expectations to become a people that defies norms and expectations. Abraham abandons his father’s house. Younger sons Isaac, Jacob and Joseph all rise to prominence. Against norms and odds, God chooses Israel, Jacob’s descendants and not Esau’s, to become God’s first-born (Exod. 4:22).
Like our own, the Torah’s topsy-turvy world is difficult to inhabit, but I firmly believe that it offers deep religious insights and reflects the world I prefer to live in personally and religiously. I do not want to live in a determined world.
A determined world — a world in which norms are fixed and expectations met — does not allow for change, growth, and surprise. It does not allow for miracles that interrupt and defy the natural world, showcasing divine power and changing the course of human history.
A determined world does not make room for God, but it also does not make room for humanity. A world in which paths and futures are fixed disempowers humans and does not allow them to make change and set their own course. Even more unappealing to me is that a determined world does not allow for intimate relationships among human beings or between humans and God. Intimacy thrives in a world that allows for change, growth, and surprise.
Intimacy thrives in a world that allows for change, growth and surprise.
In the Torah’s undetermined world, God can disrupt nature, part seas, and choose a humble unworthy people to love (Deut. 7:7–8). Human beings also have the power and freedom in this world to set their course, to defy norms and even to choose God. Jacob makes this clear in next week’s parshah when he vows to be in relationship with God only if God protects and provides for him (Gen. 28:20–22).
In the Torah’s undetermined world, God can have an intimate relationship with Israel — a relationship that erupts in a moment, is founded on desire and choice, and that develops over time. This relationship is not fixed and cannot be manifest in a determined world. It changes. God and Israel can love and reject each other only to come together again in love (Isa. 54:7).
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I do not want to live in a determined world. I do not want to live in the world described by the biblical outlier Kohelet in which the earth remains the same forever. I do not want to inhabit religiously a world in which nothing is new under the sun — where assumptions are never challenged — or where my relationship with God cannot develop and deepen.
Rather, I want to live in a world that sometimes makes me want to scream, but that allows for change and repair — a world in which an intimate relationship with God is possible — a world in which Esau’s primal screams and my own, in time, become joyful cries of reconciliation (Gen. 33:4).
Dr. Amy Kalmanofsky is the Dean of List College and the Kekst Graduate School and Blanche and Romie Shapiro Professor of Bible, Jewish Theological Seminary. To read more commentaries, visit JTS Torah Online.
The publication and distribution of the JTS Commentary are made possible by a generous grant from Rita Dee (z”l) and Harold Hassenfeld (z”l).
Candlelighting, Torah Readings
Friday, Nov. 20, 2020
Kislev 4, 5781
Light Candles at 4:16 pm
Saturday, Nov. 21
Kislev 5, 5781
Torah Reading: Toledot: Genesis 25:19-28:9
Haftarah: Malachi 1:1-2:7
Shabbat Ends 5:17 pm